I look up at the stars Hoping you are doing the same And somehow I feel closer And I can hear you say Oh I miss you Oh I need you And I love you more than I did before And if today I don’t see your face Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place It gets harder everyday Say you love me more than you did before And I’m sorry it’s this way But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, always stay
You give her a smile everyday and you have no idea how hard she falls for it. You talk like you two are best friends. You wait for her in the hall. You send sweet texts and she sends some back. She’s falling for you a little harder every single time you two are together. She talks about you only to her closest friends. She smiles at your name in her phone. And you, you just think she’s another friend. You have NO idea what she thinks about you. When she texts you, she’s just another girl. When she smiles at you, its one of love. When you smile at her, its just another smile. When you talk about that girl you’re totally into, she sits back with a smile on her face listening to every word. Yet, no one sees that with every word. She dies a little inside. She knows that the chances of you two being together is slim but she still has that hope. What do you have? Do you think at least some of the thoughts that she thinks about you? You’re in her mind all the time. Is she on yours? Are you willing to give her a chance with you or is she just another friend that you don’t mind talking to? Here’s one thing you should know. She’s thinking about giving up on you. There is surely more guys out there like you and she has just failed to see them.
To book a coach, a hostel, in a place I know nothing about, in a country I barely can speak their language, on my own, like 12 hours before I am meant to leave, moment of absolute nutcase-ness?
The need to be on my own came after a sleepless night thinking about my family, and not being able to be there for them. The feeling of being here now, I want to make the most of it.
STARING…people stare in Spain, JUST Spain.
I want to write about what I saw, what I visited, what the architecture was like, the culture.
But doesn’t really seem needed.
I never went to see Toulouse, I went to see if I could do something on my own, actually enjoy my own company, do what I want, eat what I want, see what I want.
It made me think about everything. I started thinking about what I want to do when I graduate, how much I miss my newborn nephew (despite only seeing him for the first 3days of his tiny little life). The things I wanna do. Where I wanna go.
Ok so, with the exception of…maybe an hour of facebook…
The first time I’ve ever been alone more than a day…….went very well. It is safe to say……I can be trusted to get to and from a country, in not the best of areas, with all my limbs, all my belongings, both my eyes, my phone, my jewelrey, my face, my hair…..