““Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.””
Continuously looking for genuinely nice people…. with no hidden agenda.
Although finding cracks within myself makes it even easier to be alone…
Oh….that’s sad, isnt it? Shocked myself with my own negativity.
Past two days have been soul distroying in the way that maybe I have realised I’m not so good at what I do. Effort just isn’t enough, or the effort I put in is not enough.
Bad grades, despite back breaking hard work, despite the flight home I caught just to do research, the two, almost three weeks I worked compared to everyones 48hours, just obviously not enough. Or maybe I’m just not as smart as I think.
The thing is though, with this, is that it is always with me that
"fuck you, I will prove it someday"
Maybe not here, Maybe not in the next few weeks, or even the next few years.
I’m gunna do it, and whether you are there to see it or not. Whether I am a Designer, whether I have my own little shop, or whether I just sell my crap on eBay……
I will do it, and I will have done it on my own. And i’ll be quietly happy with my little stash of money and my little happy family.